Just Thoughts

I want to keep writing. It's hard though because where I'm at we have no wifi and that makes it hard to use the blog site. Also, to write in my journal it's hard!! I've been working on keeping my journal to positive things (I hate when I write in it drunk!! It's never negative but it makes no sense) so I don't want to be weepy and emotional in my journal. So here I am with thoughts about what to do and such.

I'm kind of confused at this time as to who my real friends are. I know who my best friend is, and have been in great contact with my co-workers, and I have several friends and family who have checked on me in one way or another. However, there are one or two where I'm like…hmmm…so I need to definitely do a Facebook cleanse when I move on to my next step.

I wish I could have written down my dream last night!! I know it was complicated, intricate and very interesting!! It was like one of those fantasy movies set in the old times. I know it has to do with the fires going on around us and my book, and I'm sure it was set on Williams Lake. A lot of my dreams are set in this town that is half Williams Lake, BC and half Coleman, AB. Strange hey? Also do you ever have those ones where the house you're in is part of a few of the different houses you've ever lived in? That's so weird!!

I lost my train of thought, but isn't that fun? It's like when you get a letter from someone. Or even if you're in conversations with a few people because the topic just keeps changing. I wouldn't want to read a book like that though.

Okay, those are some of my thoughts, and I could probably just keep doing random thoughts, but I'm not on wifi and I just wanted to do a post. This is #70 on this blog I think!! Thanks for reading!! "You is smart, you is kind, you is important" (the Help) and also, I love you!!!

You Don’t Have to Live Like a Refugee

Last night the town where I live was offically put under evacuation order. Mom, Grandma and I have been staying with John, a long time friend of my parents, since Tuesday. We had decided to leave early because we were unable to work in Williams Lake. Mom started working here in Prince George. It was stressful.

However, I can’t imagine what it was like to be in the rush of the evacuation last night. I’m glad we left when we did!! From the photos I’ve seen through friends who left last night there was bumper to bumper traffic for hours. It took people 7 to 9 hours to do a 3 hour drive. Isn’t that unreal?

There are evacuation centres all over the province in the bigger centres. Today Mom and I went to register. It seems silly but we felt guilty using the aid when we didn’t need it yet and we were just on alert. It was interesting. The people there are well trained and quite organized. The wait wasn’t as long as people have been waiting, and there were people we knew that we chatted with while we were waiting. A ton of paperwork was filled out. We ended up getting grocery vouchers, a voucher for our billet to fill out and get some assistance for expenses, like ta of information and some red bands.

The red bands give us some access to things like the pools, discounts at some stores, and if you think about it, it makes us know who is here and reminds us we are in this together. BC Strong is the new motto.

We managed to stock up on groceries, and since we got some gift cards for the difference, we decided we’re going to save them all and give them to the food bank when this is all over. 

It’s amazing seeing how many people stepped up to help, how many RCMP and Fire Fighters there are from all over the place, how the communities have opened their arms for us, and the amount of donations spreading across the province. It’s pretty awesome!

The dogs are all finally starting to get used to each other, and there is less barking. Still a bitch fest once in a while, but that’s how dogs can get sometimes! They all want the attention!!

This is still a very surreal event for us though. You just never know what one day you will have to prepare for. Stay on the alert and keep living!

Wildfires and Panic

Here we are in the middle of beautiful, mountainous, British Columbia in the third season. They say now a days we have winter, construction and fire season. It’s pretty bad this year. There are about 138 fires happening in the province, and we are surrounded. Lucky for us we are in the centre of Williams Lake, which is in kind of a valley, so it would take a lot to actually affect the city.

It is extremely smokey so we’ve been sitting inside. This is so not what I wanted to be doing this weekend! We had plans to go camping, sitting by the lake with no cell service and possibly roasting hot dogs over a campfire and making s’mores for dessert. We’ve now got a fire ban on, and that Lake we had planned to go to has been evacuated.

Yesterday, just at the end of the work day, panic ensued. Two of my coworkers had to take off in a rush, one not even able to do her end of day cash out, because their homes were at risk. We’ve been keeping in contact with each other, and everyone is safe. Their animals are safe. They’ve got places to go. We might even all be back at work on Monday. We will find out tomorrow.

We currently have no cable, the internet is sporadic, and Facebook is full of rumours! I had to unfriend someone today. She made a comment that said basically that shit hit the fan, and she was mad at me for being upset at how vague her comment was! There are people who have been packing and there has been panic at the gas stations. We have a couple of gas stations that are out of gas. I think this is silly, because you should always keep your tank full! I rarely go below half a tank.

We packed up all our important documents into the fireproof safe, as well as all our USB’s and some backup discs…even though the laptop would come with us if we had to leave. For us in town the only threat is the thick smoke right now. We’ve got itchy eyes, sore throats, and have been sneezing,  but we will persevere! The dogs are staying inside as much as they can as well, and their fur is absorbing the smell.

I know things are worse for some of the people surrounding us, and our friends and some family have been displaced for a while, but I think so far we will all be okay. It is definitely scary and sad, but our trees have been sick and dying for a long time and nature will be sorting itself out for years! We will have new growth, and that is never a bad thing. 

This too will pass.

Hard to Handle

I’ve been struggling lately, trying to make a big change in my life. It’s a very hard decision, and I know it needs to be done. The only thing is when and how to do it. I want to make sure that I have the money to stustain myself on a big move, and that I don’t get myself into a financial rut. I’ve been looking for a job where I want to move.

The thing is, I feel so stuck where I am. I’ve been here for a long time, had lots of ups and downs, met people and lost people and yes I have a good job, but it doesn’t make me happy. It’s a good job in wages, and I love the job itself, but…I don’t know, maybe I’m just really tired of the town I’m in.

I don’t have a huge social life. I have friends who invite me to do things now and then, but everyone is so busy. It wouldn’t be as bad if I was in a relationship or had children of my own, but it’s just me and Bronn. We find things to do, but it’s hard.

It was awesome when I went to Europe. It opened up a huge window for me, where I learned I am capable of doing anything really. I mean I travelled across the world by myself! That’s pretty huge! But then I had to come back here and everything is the same. I’ve tried to make some adjustments….like signing Bronn up for agility classes to get us out of the house and even online dating. It’s nice to be chatting but there’s no one on there that’s exciting to me. I went on one date and it was nice but it didn’t go anywhere. 

I feel myself getting depressed. What a dumb time of the year to become depressed!! I’ve been drinking more alcohol than usual and I am now certain, after doing a bit of research, that this is what is causing me to feel depressed again. I need to stop drinking alcohol, for real, so I can pull myself up out of the rut and move on! I just need help and support.

Prompts and Challenges 

Sometimes it is so hard to think about something that you want to write about! I’ve been randomly using prompts from Pinterest, things from my day and life, or things I’ve chatted about with friends. I wanted to do this blog to get myself just writing more. I also have the books “642 Things to Write About” and “642 Tiny Things to Write About”. I was keeping the tiny one in my purse but now I’m training someone at work so we take our breaks together, I can’t concentrate on it. I hope to get some entries done this summer while camping with no cell phone service.

I feel like I am reaching a goal, since I have done quite a few blog posts this year alone. Now I need to make that goal bigger. A post a day, some form of writing each day, eventually a novel. One thing I was thinking of doing is to start the 30 day challenges, and do them as a blog post. Or even the journaling ones, and have a journal entry a day. I love writing, and I can be pretty good at it I think.

If anyone out there has ideas for prompts, ideas for posts, or has seen any good writing challenges, send them my way!! I’m doing fantastic with the reading challenges I do though. So that’s good!

Bird

Imagine being a bird. Just flying around making nests, laying eggs to hatch new birds, squawking at one another for communication. Being able to go to the top of the trees, or mountains. Gliding around through the air, just free. To be the majestic eagle, a sly hawk, part of a murder of crows, or even being an annoying pigeon. Anything to be able to take off right now, let the water roll off my wings and the stress breeze past me. Free. Just to be free would be nice.

5KM Foam Fest 2017

On June 16th my Mom, her coworkers Kandee, my Aunty Tammy and I piled into my Mom’s truck and headed for Sunpeaks. It was a nice evening and the construction traffic wasn’t too bad. We stopped in 100 Mile House to pick up Nicole and get some snacks from 7/11. Then away we went, laughing all the way ha ha ha!

We got to Sunpeaks at about 8pm and pulled into the underground parking lot, and Judy was right behind us! We parked, unloaded, headed to our condo, chose our beds and started our appy feast. We also had some drinks and struggled to figure out the stereo system. We never did figure out how to use the surround sound speakers and couldn’t get a USB to work. Thankfully we had CDs in Mom’s truck! That night we played a hilarious game of Cards Against Humanity where new words were learned… should I share them on here? Well, yes, we learned about Smegma, shart and queef. Oh that game, it’s a blast!

Nicole and I stayed up the latest, being that we were the youngest. I read my book before bed too.

The next morning we got up pretty early, I’d say around 8:30am. I felt good but my stomach was upset. I started to cook breakfast and they had hose dumb stainless steel pans that everything sticks to. I really do not understand those things!! But we got breakfast made and it was delicious. We had breakfast sandwiches. 

Mom forgot to pack the cream and milk we bought so we were drinking this black coffee with stevia tablets and I had found some vanilla flavouring. Nicole came in and was asking if there was milk and we were telling her about the stevia and flavouring, then she said “I think I’ll just use coffee mate.” All of a sudden a couple of us jumped up to go get the coffee mate that we completely missed. It was hilarious!!

I had a nap after breakfast. When I got up my stomach was upset. We got our fun outfits on and headed into the village. There was lots going on! We got ourselves registered and then stood in the line to wait for our run to begin. When we got let into the foam enterance we were at the front of the line so we stood 6 across. It was kind of overwhelming because then we had to run to avoid getting trampled. Last year we were more in the middle.

Running up the hill was not good on my tummy!! It took a while for the nausea to subside. It was okay though, I took it slow. We all did. It’s not a race, it’s a fun run!!

The obstacles seemed to be farther apart at the beginning this year, and then they were closer together at the end. I suppose that is just the way they need to lay it out being that it is on a ski hill. There was a couple different ones this year too, I guess due to different sponsors. Also the snow had melted more so the mud ponds weren’t as deep or as long across than last year. The air was warmer too. 

All was going smoothly and we did a nice pace. Then we got to the super steep slide and there was a huge line up!! It took us at least half an hour to get to the slide, and then a minute to get down. Last year we just went up to it and did it and kept going. Not exactly sure what happened there. Must have been some kind of malfunction. 

It took us way longer to do the course this time and I feel like it was due to the delays. It also seemed like they had less photographers this time. There was no after party and no music in the streets. There was a farmers market happening on Sunday morning though, and live music then. 

It was blast over all though and we will most likely be doing it next year!!

Eurotrip Memories

Here are just a few things that have randomly popped into my head about my trip that I feel like I forgot to share while doing my blog posts:

One thing I forgot to mention is the Contiki basement. It was where we had our first meeting. It was kind of a rec room, reminded me of something like the Boys and Girls Club where teens can go to stay out of trouble. There was lots of seating, books to borrow to read on the bus and even a pool table. It was a great atmosphere to meet everyone, very welcoming.

In St. Goar after our wine tasting we hung out in the pub of the quaint little hotel. There was this photo there of a past Contiki tour that somehow did like 400 shots or something and we were all trying to figure out how that was possible as it would have been like at least 20 shots each or something. We never did figure it out, and we weren’t interested in trying.

When we were in Hopfgarten, Austria, we were just touring around and we went into a Catholic Church. There were only a few people sitting at the front but we had an nice little moment of silence for an Easter Prayer or some reflection on where we were. It was so beautiful, the paintings and the displays they had. Even the confessional booths were painted nicely. It felt neat to be doing our Good Friday church thing…even though there was no mass. 

Austria was also great because we met Contiki extended family, and got to see what some of the crazier Contiki people are like! It was more of us getting to know each other that night than to explore the town. The weather wasn’t nice there, and it was a small place, so it was nice to just play games with each other and have some drinks. A bunch of us girls got into dancing too!! That was the night I went around and got everyone’s full names and a fun fact about each of them! We also made our “Sound of Music” hill twirling videos that day!

It’s funny how when you go on a trip now, there are always guys out on the streets trying to peddal souveniers. It seems like they are always the same type of guy too…pushy and giving off almost sleezy vibes. If you didn’t know who they were you could get hussled pretty bad. There were guys in all those places who would walk up and tie a bracelet on someone then ask for payment!! Rude!!

Next time I go on a big trip I will take echinacea with me, and vitamin C tablets, and my ItWorks greens now that I have them. I’ve looked at other people’s photos and I missed out on a few things, like the cruise on Lake Lucern in Switzerland. I was too sick to go enjoy it. Plus, visiting Anne would have been a lot better and a lot longer of a visit. I think I will plan to go back to Paris just to visit her, and then go to London for a bit to tour there because I barely saw anything there.

Those are just some things I was randomly thinking about from my trip, and had to get it captured somewhere!!

Agility Class

Bronn and I have been going to an agility class every Tuesday for the past six weeks. We got rained out one of the nights so we have one more class to make up for that.

Agility for dogs is like an obstacle course with jumps, a teeter totter, a hanging breakaway tire (one that breaks apart if they don’t jump correctly), weave poles, and a tunnel. 

When we first started Bronn was distracted by the other dogs at the beginning of every class. The other two dogs are quite a bit younger than him too, so they wanted to see each other for a bit because they are still learning to socialize. Now they still have to say “hi” but they will get right into their course within 2’or three sniffs and licks.

Bronn is a Velcro dog. He sticks by me a lot. When we go on hikes he even runs ahead for some sniffs, and then runs right back to make sure I’m still coming. It makes it hard to do tricks and things with him though because he won’t stay, he thinks he should just be with me at all times. He stays at home and in the car when he’s asked, but when he can follow me, he will.

We’re working on it. It’s something we need to continue to work on though. Trying to figure out how it’s okay for me to leave him, and him realize that I will be coming back. We’ll keep at it.

Anyways, it’s pretty awesome. Bronn and I can run though course, he will go through everything, jump over the poles without knocking anything over, and he doesn’t get distracted. It’s so much fun!! I’m a proud dog Mom!!

The Next 10 Songs

My MP3 player is on random:

Too Hot – Alanis Morisette

Who am I Living For? – Katy Perry

(Just Like) Starting Over – John Lennon

Summerboy – Lady Gaga

Run, Run, Run – Phoenix

Jumpstart – These Kids Wear Crowns

Release – Timbaland feat Justin Timberlake

Low – Flo Rida

Chances Are – Garrett Hedlund

Right to Be Wrong – Joss Stone